Change is hard.

Period. Full stop.

I could stop writing right here because I really don’t need to say more. I mean, you know change is hard, right? More than likely all the world has experienced this. Many and more are probably going through this right at this very moment (considering this Covid environment we live in). But it’s not really my style to be a gal of few words, so continue I shall.

Change is hard. And mostly because with big change comes big resistance. As we begin to change, we begin to feel all the things …

Panic attacks

So while I know what I should do and what I need to do to change, I instead allow my deep emotions and feelings to override my reason. Until eventually … resignation. I give up. And often never realize the change I seek.

Change is hard. There’s no doubt about it. But I am wondering if it really has to be? What if I’m looking at it the wrong way?

What if these deep emotions, these deep feelings I’m feeling amidst change, are not there to deter me, to enforce my resignation per se, but to guide me? To ensure that I am in fact on the road to the change I seek. And to also ensure that I want it with all my heart.

Because if it were all so easy (that is, the act of producing or procuring some big change just came easy) and we could change at the drop of a hat, would it mean anything?

What value would it have if I could be a piece of sh*t today and an enlightened soul tomorrow? How would life fare if I decide upon being a poet today but tomorrow I easily transform into an expert brain surgeon?  Would any of it (life, that is) hold any meaning at all, if this were the case?

What if change being hard is the point? What if the fear and the anxiety and all the emotions we feel as we change is actually the good stuff? What if we struggle through change and just KEEP GOING?

What if we find out that was the journey all along?

Because we don’t just go through the struggles in life, we GROW through them. And we come out the other side changed for the better … grown, leveled up, evolved. We come out on the other side the person we were hoping to become. Maybe even the person we were always meant to be.

Change is hard. There’s no doubt about it. But also, maybe it’s everything.